Ultrasound!

Yay for a fantastic ultrasound!!! The cyst that Violet had is completely gone which is so wonderful! I asked Mary if Vi is indeed a girl, and she's fairly certain she is....and it took alot of work to get that much, lol. I had to lay on my stomach, lay on my side, she was squishing my belly all over, etc....little Violet was hiding her face under my ribs, and her hands between her legs. So we didn't get any u/s pics today - boo! - but that's ok because we'll meet her soon!
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Another Ultrasound, yay!!

Tomorrow I have another u/s and I can't wait!!!! It's super early (7:30am!) which is great because I can't wait! :) And we're ssslllllooowwwwlllyyy getting Violet's room ready! It's all painted and waiting for furniture....we just have to get the carpet installed, and soon! Hopefully it'll happen by the middle of next week....although if it can be in by Friday of this week I would be beyond ecstatic! Then we can assemble the crib, and start decorating. I'm so giddy with excitement of meeting her, yet scared to death of having two kids. TWO KIDS!! This pregnancy has flown by so fast...it's hard to believe that I only have 9 weeks left...W.O.W. Although this pregnancy hasn't been as pleasant as it was when I was pregnant with Livi since I've had a bunch of issues with my iron and blood pressures, I'm still thoroughly enjoying it. And Mike is a complete blessing throughout everything...he's even handling my bitching in stride, lol. I think he's completely amazed at how big my belly is getting....it seems like it grows so much bigger every single day....it's crazy.
So wish us luck tomorrow that everything looks great (they are following up on a small spot they saw on the heart. They aren't concerned about it though, so we haven't been) and little Vi looks terrific! I will be posting the pics tomorrow :)

B*tch*ng

Some people just need smacked. Seriously. Quit your attention seeking ways and get over yourself. You know the people I'm talking about...the ones who have it worse then everyone no matter the circumstance. The ones whose headaches throb harder, whose job is tougher, whose pain is deeper. It makes me want to smack them. Do you think that they know people are frusterated with them? Do you think that they know that people are tired of them? Rolling their eyes behind their backs? Do you think that they know? Do they care?

It makes me want to scream.

Some people just need smacked....

More neurology....

So after Livi's THIRD seizure this past week on vaca (while on the PA turnpike....and it was a bad one...) we scheduled a face-to-face meeting with Dr. Hershkowicz today at 2:15. Mike and I have heavily discussed this past week about putting Livi on some meds since they are still happening, and was prepared for Dr. H suggesting them at the appt today....and were totally shocked when she thought that it was better to hold off on them. After going into every seizure episode again, and exploring all of the different reasons that could be behind them, she is thinking that she has a disorder (sorry, can't remember the name of it for the life of me!) where basically she'll 'outgrow' them by age 5. It's something in 1-5 yr olds where they are extremely sensitive to changes and their brain will just freeze up and seize. And since Livi doesn't display any signs or symptoms of having seizures during the day, the Dr. is pretty much ruling out epilepsy. Yay! BUT if she hits age 5 and is still having them, then it's time to put her on Keppra (sp?) since it will most likely indicate that she has a seizure disorder. :( So it looks like we continue on with no sleep at night, and Livi still in our bed. We explained our theory on why they happen to her, and she tends to agree that it could be the cause.....that Livi just overheats. So we have to get her a spritzer bottle and everytime it's hot out, or she's getting really warm, we have to spritz her body down with the cold water so the heat dissapates from her body.
The second set of great news ::insert sarcasm:: is that Dr. H is leaving August 31 to Seattle Washington :( So for now we are sticking with her nurse practioner, Kim, who has been with her for the past 10 years. We have a follow up with her in December, and I pray that we don't have to go in before then.
It weighs so heavily on my heart that this is happening to my sweet Angel. It feels like everytime I close my eyes I can picture her seizing and I start crying. I can't sleep at night, I can't relax during the day, and I can never let her out of my sight when her eyes are closed. The stress of something happening is a constant pressure that I feel is getting so heavy. I don't think I have slept more then an hour at a time since this past seizure, and I don't see anymore sleep in my near future. I drag all day at work, and all night at home. I can't focus on anything anymore out of pure exhaustion, and have become more lightheaded and sick because of it.
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It's been awhile....

But our new daughter has a name! :)

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Violet Jalena Kraus

Jalena means 'Helen' in Czech so it's a nice tribute to Grandma Wagner. Mom of course bawled when we told her, but in a completely wonderful way. :heart: We're SO EXCITED to meet her!