Vaca!

We went to EI again this year and it was fantastic!! We did so many more things this year then the last time and had so much more fun! The girls both LOVED the beach, and getting Livi out of the ocean was certainly a chore :) V loved walking through the sand (eating it!) and going down in water so the waves would get her. Totally needed the relaxation as well!

Heeellllooooooo......

Ok it's been awhile. Not just awhile, but more like *ahem* a few months. MONTHS?! Wow.

The girls are getting bigger and learning more and more each day! Livi's front tooth is just about ready to come out....a little tug and I believe it would be gone. But not from me. No, uh ah. I get all queasy just thinking about it! Ha!! I swear I have become the woman with the weakest stomach! The other day the girls at work were talking about rings being tight on their fingers....and me? Yeah I got all light headed and had to sit down since the world around me was going black. Nice.

Violet is almost a year. !?!?! Crazy times!!! She's standing on her own now and trying harder then heck to walk around and keep up with Livi. It's adorable!

Well that's it for now...I have more online shopping to do :) I have entered the crazy addiction known as Matilda Jane. ::shakes head:: I have placed more orders for Naartjie, Mini Boden, and MJ lately then I ever told myself would be possible. Bye bye money it was nice knowing you while you were here!......

So here it goes

Diet. Exercise. Eat right. Go to the gym. Yadda.Yadda.Yadda.

And I have. And I'm doing pretty well if I do say so myself. I've lost 20 pounds which is 'real' weight loss...something that I've had to work at to get rid of. I've been going to the gym in the mornings at 5 (yeah....), and doing what I can at night after work. And I've gone down a full size....almost can start squeezing myself into the one after as a matter of fact. :) But it's starting to not be 'fun' anymore. I feel the crack starting, which to me, as in the past, is where I start "shutting down" as far as everything goes. And I'm trying so very very hard to stay on track... to up my progress actually. But I don't know if it's working. And it's consumed me. I think about food constantly. Not just what I can or can't eat, but food in general. I think about what I should be doing, and what I'm not. I think about sizes, and numbers, and carbs. It makes me want to scream. I'm happy with where I am have gotten, and I'm happy thinking about where I can go. I've seen others overcome their weight and get to where they want to, and OMG does that make me so happy! Both for them and for myself...I CAN do it! I CAN be the smaller size that I used to be...I CAN push my body to become what I want it to be! It's so much more motivating then they probably realize (Kim, you in particular!) to see what determination can do.

I may falter, and I may sway, but I'm going down the right path. Mike is constantly telling me how much he can really notice about my weight loss, and for the first time, I had 2 customers comment on how well I look and have I lost weight? It feels FANTASTIC!

So I will tredge along, and push myself harder. I will make this happen and I will make this become fun again. I will not take credit for making this change on my own, but rather thank those who have made me see what I can do. :)

Wordless Wednesday....

We got IN!

Ok, so techinically Livi did, but OMGOODNESS we're SO excited!!! We never even entertained sending Livi to a Montessori school before about 4 months ago.....and then we went to an open house, asked around, talked to people, did our research, and you know what? I wanted her in one. BAD. The problem? Kids are enrolled from all over Erie County....it's a pretty big playing field for only a handfull or so of spots to fill. So once we submitted her 'application' it was a waiting and praying game. Because we put all of our eggs into this one basket.....
And then the letter came....
"To the parents of Olivia Kraus".....
and it sat there.....
we ordered food.....
it sat there.....
we ate dinner....
it sat there.....
we cleaned up.....
it sat there....
you would have thought that we were waiting for a college acceptance letter to arrive! I was so nervous that I made Mike open it. I mean, what if she didn't get in?? Where would she go? I don't like the Erie schools....I don't like the Millcreek schools....county schools are just too far to drive to and from every day....etc, etc, etc.
But...
SHE GOT IN!
We were stupid little children dancing around the kitchen with the kids and dog just looking at us like we lost our minds....we probably did....it was awesome!
And since she got in, Violet can get in no problem. AW.E.SOME!
Kindergarten here we come!!!